MrSpkr's random thoughts . . .: Of my two boys. . .

Monday, May 08, 2006

Of my two boys. . .
I feel closest to my oldest son -- he looks most like me, acts and thinks most like me, and enjoys many of the same interests I had as a boy. Unfortunately, he also has my temper and deals with anger about as well as I do.

This weekend, he told me I was his idol.

Wow. Is that a burden or what? I want so desperately for him to be happy, but not spoiled; content, but not ambivalent; loved, but not smothered. Every day I worry that I am screwing up my role as a father (not only for him, but for my other kids, too). I am, quite frankly, a grumpy old man with a very short fuse. I am also an only child and feel completely inept at raising my kids. I thank God every day for my wife, who is one of the best moms and teachers I know.

I pray about these things a lot, but not nearly enough.
- posted by MrSpkr @ 09:59

Comments:

I've always been a firm believer that you cannot tell your children how to grow up and behave, you have to show them. It's not always an easy thing to do. Obviously, from your son's comments, you're doing exactly that.

# posted by

Terri : Monday, May 08, 2006 12:27:00 PM

You WILL mess up Steve, we all do. You WILL kick yourself for the times you were angry or upset or let work take more of a priority than it should, we all do. You WILL make mistakes, we all do.

But at the end of the day you'll have sons that grow into fine young men with whom you can sit on the deck, drink a beer and talk OU football ... and I know that because you're the kind of guy who worries about how they'll grow up.

Just do your best and remember that we're all human ... and kids can be very forgiving, they're human too.

Joe

# posted by

Joe Shaw : Monday, May 08, 2006 1:14:00 PM

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